Innocent Slumber

he longs to speak
to her, to ask
her name

he sits across her
everyday
willing her
to look up from her
studies

to look at him and
smile

she's oblivious,
thinking of
homework
while he thinks of
her

her boy sits next to her
making him extremely
Shy.

he sighs
and tells himself, 'tomorrow
i'll definitely speak to
her'

but i wonder =)

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this friend of mine in school xD names will be omitted.

its weird
when i just sit quietly
at home doing
nothing

these cells absolutely
refuse to stay
quiet

its a
shield

designed by my
subconscious angel
to keep thoughts going
positive

cuz

when i am silent and
alone
my mind goes blank, and
i can't help
but think of
you and how

i always hurt you with
my lips...

happy being
the little bitch i am

but sometimes i see
you
and your friends
fooling around
laughing joking

excluding me
the emo botch
my brain freezes

i wistfully think that
it'd be nice if
i were like
you

falling
into dreamless slumber
thinking of you

your lips utter
obscenities, you laugh
in apparent joy
but in your eyes

i see fathomless
pain that only
i can understand

because in them i see
the agonies of one
who falls into bed
sleepless

broken,
battered,
unable to see
into the horizon.

pain like a
thorn savaging
my heart with thoughts
of you